GRAFFITI

May be I should write more about movies I watch, songs I listen and the nautanki I do. Any other thing related to my life is not coming onto this blog in near future. Not because, I don’t want it to, but there are so many good and bad experiences yaar. I’m just too occupied and busy to jot down every other event. I’m just lazy to write about it. I find it easy to identity myself with any other filmy story, and may be that’s the reason I came back to write something about the movie instead of writing something that should have mattered to me more. I’m also liking the small simple sentences I come up with these days whenever I write. Smaller the better, makes more sense. I’ve been going to Ohio theater for quite a while and mind you, it’s not that easy to digest that I am putting a lot of effort in doing those Hollywood ‘realistic’ scenes without faking. Actually, it’s quite easy to convince yourself that you can run around the tree, sing a song and kick 100 asses at a time . That’s filmy! and that’s what I love. I’m seriously bored writing about myself. Not sure why I got this weird thought, but there isn’t anything special about myself that anyone or even I should read. I bet, this is a stupid thing to say. But, its all said and done now!

I’m just fascinated by the line from Om shanti om – “Picture abhi baaki hai!”, and one more weird thing is that these days, every other movie leaves me with one of such silly lines enough to make a long lasting impact. I’ve started analysing the mechanics behind a movie making process and keeping that in mind, I carefully use the critic inside me. So, whether it’s the ‘dhinchak masala tak dhina dhin’ types SRK, Govinda movies or so called ‘experimental, real, art’ types by Aamir/RGV/nagesh kukunoor movies – they are all Hit for me! It’s take a lot of conviction to present an art form to the audience and that’s what fascinates me. I have also learned that a particular scene can never reach it’s best level coz we don’t know what’s best. There are always ways to improvise it, make it a lot better.

I just walked in here to write about a movie and when it comes to movies, I land up writing crap as above. So, nevermind!! The movie is Satya! I watched it again, today! It’s a classic by RGV on underworld and I love such bhai-giri wala movies full of blood shed, murders, rape and everything worst possible. Apart from the dialogues, direction, action – I loved the love story. That’s perfectly how love should be! Sacrificing! I mean, who would want to die without seeing a girl you love one last time. I would prefer dying in her lap holding her hand, seriously And then when I see such scenes, I love being myself, more pure, more real. Coz, I share the same feelings too! Man, it’s so difficult to find true love and when you do, you realise you are caught up in a mess full of unnecessary drama. Satya was one such case as far as bollywood is concerned. Manoj Bajpai is superb! “Mumbai ka king kon? Beeku Mhatre!” perfect yaar! Movie was too good and that’s the best I can write about it:D I weeped at the end, as usual.

Finally, Micheal Jackson, I’ll miss you. You are a real showstopper!

Someone. Completely stranger to you. You would not want to talk to him even if he is likable. To you, he just mean nothing more than an ordinary face in the crowd. Nothing really excites you about him. His first impression isn’t even worth considering him in your second thoughts. Accidently bumping onto him is what you would not want and that’s exactly what happens. You’ve no choice, but to apologize. He smiles and make an attempt to talk. You answer him. Conversation begins. You try to avoid questions, but can’t. Something interests you and the whole thing finally clicks. You meet him the next day. Then the next day. And, the next day. Friends. Both learn a little more about each other every day. You realise, that he is a gem as a friend. You feel proud to have him in your life. He’s so different than others unlike what you had imagined him to be earlier when he was a complete stranger. You feel so connected to realise that you both have nothing in common, but still it continues to gel well. He’s so different to be extra ordinary and so good to be your friend. So good to be true. He’s still a stranger – who’s no more a stranger.

Why do I have to write a big post if I can comfortably add a video about what I am upto these days? Wish I could do that, but hell no!, we haven’t edited any of our videos and I’m scared of the FBI tracking me down for uploading explicit content .  I’m not talking about any porno or something. Well, it’s just that we are foul spoken, struggling to learn some socially accepted mannerisms. I really didn’t want to write anything today, but I’m forcefully trying to find a process to investigate my thinking abilities. Sometimes, I do need to write crap to freshen up my brain. I’m nothing more than a nervous breakdown if you take it otherwise. First of all, On weekdays, I don’t find enough time to think about anything else than work and even if I had time, I wouldn’t want to think about anything else than work. It’s pretty straight as it sounds. That surprises me, coz I’m not busy at all. I’m just enjoying my job. On weekends, I do have time to write, but I don’t. Why? No idea boss ! This time, we have a long weekend, so I decided to sit and write!! So, please read my blog huh ! As if I’m presenting some kind of status report on my blogging job. Aaah! Excuse me, just oiling my brain.

I consider ‘Life’ to be a separate entity with its own life. The more I bother about it, the more it messes around and takes undue advantage of me. The more I ignore it, the more it tries to make everything fall in place. So, just separate your so called ‘life’ from yourself, stop thinking about it for a while and have a happy day. Wrong or Right, whatsoever it may be, people console their traumatic soul by uttering the same old line “It’s life” and move on. That’s pathetic. What’s life? Life should neither be an excuse for your failures nor responsible for your successes. Either have a power to write your own life or simply ignore it.

A human soul is like an ocean. Trying diving into it. If you drown, you’re lost. If not, then probably you learn more about yourself. You find yourself.

Well, it makes sense only to me. Coz, if it starts making sense to others, I would miss being the only stupid person around.

I’ve also been thinking about something else. During the last 5 months, I’ve turned myself into a party maniac. Hanging out with friends, frequent visits to bars, trips to places like Goa/remote areas of Maharashtra and much more. I’ve royally utilized the Idea cellular network by spending hell a lot of money on calls and messages.

In this process, It seems I’ve become a sort of a person who’s generously generous.You ask me to call, I’ll call hundreds of times. You ask me to be there, I’ll be there. You ask me to throw parties, I’ll be honored to do so. I feel I’m cheaply available to everyone who genuinely cares for me. And, I’m heavily expensive to people who pretends to be a friend. That’s exactly I wanted to write today.

Lack of posts here shouldn’t send out a negative message about this blog. It only means, I haven’t been writing here, instead I’ve written somewhere else, something else.

Watched ‘Mamma Mia’. I love musicals and this is one of the best from Hollywood. Meryl Streep is excellent as always. What a movie!! Awesome!

On Women’s day, here goes a column by Shobha De. I think I couldn’t have written better than this and neither do I have time to write. So just posting it here for my future reference.

http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/Columnists/Shobhaa-De-The-new-desi-girl/articleshow/4240098.cms

Very true.

And as I write it …  Sachin just hit a century in the third ODI against New Zealand …I’m loving it!!! Hurray !!!!!

I have become very much resistant to recession that I hardly notice the significance or realize the vulnerability towards it. People genuinely consider it as a threat, warn and guide their colleagues, but I jerk it off my head as if I am the one who drives the economy. It no more bothers me to be a part of a same sinking ship which has taken away millions of jobs already. I feel okay that I am not jobless yet, but wouldn’t be shocked either if I become one in near future. Anyways, the point is, there is something amazing in not getting affected by any damn possible thing in the world. Life would be more simple and happier then. This happens when you have nothing to lose or losing doesn’t bother you anymore. Well, after an introspection and self discovery of my life, it seems both applies to me. Even if you lose, you can impose some fake consolation on yourself and get back saying,”Failure is not an option”.

Happy new year friends. Wish you a better and safer tomorrow. I feel fresh, excited and more hopeful about 2009. I have lot of resolutions like never before and plan to stick to every one of them for a better me. I feel much more positive about myself, open to new ideas, ready for risks and stay focused. I would forget few things about past, cherish few and rectify few of mistakes. I have always considered Life very simple and it would stay the same. So, lets rock!

I have been thinking a lot about India and the countless problems it faces. The major one is terror which poses a threat to millions of lives. After 26/11, people seems united and have stood up for a change. I sympathize with citizens who lost their beloved ones – only to shed few more tears, succumb to the agonizing pain and accept things as they are. Imagine a mother who loses her son in one of these terror attacks. Would she crave for a revenge or silently mourn in shock? It’s our habit to point fingers at people for their negligence or incompetence and that’s the first most important thing to get rid of. Point fingers at yourself and do a reality check. Are you grown up enough to criticize? I am just as shameful as any one of us. Are we waiting to get one of our family members killed to realize the seriousness of the problem? India needs action not out of revenge, but out of responsibility. When putting end to terrorism seems almost impossible, we need a big heart towards helping our country and a responsible attitude towards humanity. Why not contribute to the society, help each other out and restore peace.

Okay, now when I write something like that, it gets me really emotional. It sounds a bit poetic and quite effective to make me a better person. When I read it the next time, it would rather smile at myself and say, “Did I write this?”. Yes, I did. It would take nothing but a small change of attitude from you. As the new year comes in your way, just a simple change in thinking would make a drastic difference, wouldn’t it?

Lets talk something else now. I loved both “Rab ne..” and “Ghajini”. Especially the love stories in both the movies. I am in love with Asin. What a killer performance, what an amazing actress!! Hats off to Aamir Khan too. I was expecting a lot about how and why those tattoos??? But, there was no explanation to it. How disappointing !! Anyways, it was a good movie.  Talking about Rab ne, Anuskha Sharma is brilliant and beautiful. Finally .. I love SRK any time, any day.

I will be off to Nagpur in few hours for my dear friend Nitin’s wedding. He is the first amongst us to tie the knot and it’s gonna be a hell of an experience. I’m gonna cut the post short and write something interesting soon. Till then, have a wonderful plan for 2009.

Today, I reminisced almost the complete year of 2007. It was hell of a story, completely cherished and sympathized by lovely roomies. Things which happened to me when my stars of fate were aligned to perfection in the earlier part and the nightmares which struck real hard towards the later part. My so called self-proclaimed story of ghost at ‘Skyler ridge 1008′ has invited so many listeners who want to believe things which might not have proven by putting forth even a strongest case in the world. In fact, my story goes on and on without any question being asked. May be I’m a good as a story teller or may be I present things which can be misleading at times but the fact maintains the gist intact. Rohit and Raj are good listeners and I assume they had a good time listening to my old tale of 2007. Rohit was so mesmerized by my english-cum-mumbaiya lingos at times that he remains quiet at the moment where he could have cross questioned me for my illogical fiction. He looks at my gestures, marks my every word and keeps on piling his unasked questions at the back of his mind. I presume, he forgets them just right before the story reaches the concluding part. I don’t fear questions and have a logical explanation for my illogical blabber. Though each one of us was down with a tiring working day, we decided to stop by a ‘White Castle’ and have our share of sour, spicy cheap burgers. This was the place, people had warned me about. A place where you can find ugliest and tasteless burgers ever. But, this is not the way it worked for me. Your first visit might not help you in coming to a proper judgment, but at least its so tempting that makes you visit it again. Remember the day when you had your first sip of beer and it sucked. Don’t ask me why you love beer now then ? Same analogy applies to White Castle. The girl at the counter complimented me for my ‘Puma’ jacket and said that she owned a same jacket too. Babes, thanks! That’s a nice way to make customers happy. Get me 1 chicken burger, 1 fish burger, 1 cheese burger with a medium size coke please. And it’s ‘To Go —>’ !!! I am friendly with Rohit that sometimes I ask him for a kiss in a good humor and he replies me back with a middle finger. I wonder what this middle finger means. I have read a whole lot of story mentioning the significance of it, but I decided to ask Rohit about it. He didn’t know. I guess, even half of the Americans don’t have an idea. Coming back to year 2007 – well, it was worthy enough for me and much worthy for most of the afro-americans who dreamt about Obama, Obama and Obama! We had a good discussion on an electoral front too. Hope – as they say – is a strong word – it may not assure your victory, but serves a abstract support for your dreams from getting shattered. Obama used ‘hope’ and ‘change’ in a right manner. Republicans couldn’t do more than just hope for victory and victory came as a package with ‘hope’ for Democrats. Dan – my colleague – supported McCain. Silly guy even had wallpapers of McCain and Palin on his desktop. I had always intentionally pissed him off by portraying myself as a die hard supporter of Barack with a vote. He agreed with me that Barack was a better speaker than John irrespective of the agendas they proposed for the betterment of US. I am really unsure what hope they have for a better America? America is better already. Somehow, I felt comfortable understanding the politics in America. I mean, there is very less and interesting stuff to master here. Specifically, black Americans do have an untamed interest in pursuing law and doing least what they could, in politics. I remember in March 2008, I had a chat with a black taxi driver about the elections and whom did he really support. That guy took extra classes in LAW after an hectic taxi driving sessions throughout the day. He did his schooling in some famous Wake county Law school in Raleigh. I found him damn interesting as a speaker. He said, “Our community will make sure Obama wins. We need a change”. Bhai Sahab! Sach kahan tha aapne. When I got out of the taxi and gave him 30$, he said, “Do you have Change?” LOLzz.. I said, “Dude Obama is not yet elected. It’s okay, keep the change!”.

Raj and Rohit seems to be tired by the entire conversation. Me too. But, the stories goes on and on.

To be continued…

Times of India – 11/10/2008

http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/Girls_burnt_alive_for_visiting_boys_on_Diwali/articleshow/3697230.cms

Girls Burnt alive (also..‘‘attacked by machetes and axes and stones”) for visiting boys on Diwali.

How inhuman !! Ignore economic downfall, corruption and terrorism. First burn such anti-social, orthodox elements from nook and corner of India. I have a gut feeling that such news will persist even after a decade from now. WHY ?